In Chapter 14, Poem 17 of Attar's Mokhtar Nameh, the poet expresses a profound sense of existential astonishment intertwined with deep, relentless sorrow. The speaker reflects on a life consumed entirely by suffering, noting that they have not experienced a single moment of joy. This continuous state of grief and the agonizing awareness of existence ('as my soul reaches my lips') highlights a central theme in Attar's work: the painful, unfulfilled yearning of the spiritual seeker who perceives the sheer weight of life without the relief of worldly or spiritual solace.