In Chapter 23, Poem 19 of the Mokhtar Nameh, Attar expresses profound existential despair stemming from a lifetime of spiritual isolation. The speaker laments that their departing soul never found a true confidant (محرم), and their wounded heart remained without a healing balm (مرهم). This total absence of companionship and comfort culminates in a bleak renunciation of life itself, as the speaker welcomes the end of a 'useless breath' that failed to yield even a single moment of joy.