In Poem 30 of Attar's Mokhtar Nameh, the poet explores the mystical paradox of self-annihilation (Fana) in the divine ocean. Despite the soul's earnest attempt to "lose oneself" (خویش گم باید کرد) in the vastness of the divine, it finds its ego or separate identity stubbornly persisting, observing itself "remaining outside" even as it ventures deep within. This inability to achieve complete annihilation results in spiritual agony and bewilderment, depicted metaphorically as the heart remaining "drowned in blood" and "overturned." The poem highlights the immense difficulty of transcending the self on the Sufi path, where the consciousness of the self becomes an agonizing barrier to absolute unity.